Powerfully, Persuasion Pushes Perspectives.

^see that?^
yeah. Thats alliteration.
pretty cool, aye?

Today, I was told by many close friends, family members and School Teachers that I may be suffering from depression.
This confused me. I'd never seen my self as a depressed or sad person.
And now, its all I'm thinking about, my thoughts are shaded by this overlooming cloud of gloom, telling me to stop doing certain things, to give up on others, to avoid work.
This in itself made me feel, for lack of a better word... Depressed.

It was a strange sensation for me, I somewhat felt like I was becoming a cliche. I mean, I already had the black hair and the fringe, I guess depression was just the next logical step to compete the image I must create in the minds of others.
I had never really thought of depression as an actual Mental Illness, and I'm not sure if I do even now. It seems to me that it is completely brought on by the power of suggestion, and that to be sad is merely human at times. But "depression" is an affliction completely man made, supplied by completely man made drugs to alter moods to something more acceptable in a completely man made society.
But now, I dont know... I suppose I feel differently, I went through the help sites the government had put up, and some of the supposed symptoms of depression, I am feeling right now. And these arent just guesswork. Things like the inability to sit still, the lack of sleep. these are things I had never associated with depression because I never really associated them with the feeling of being sad, which, in my immature brain, are the same thing.



[Deliberate Dramatic Pause]



You know, quite often I go to write something here... decide that its a stupid thing to say, then digress onto something else entirely.
Well, nows one of those times, sort of...
You see I remembered a quote whilst writing this blog, its relevant, and essentially captures my previous mindset.... The only problem is...

Its a Blink-182 quote.

Now, dont get me wrong, I enjoy listening to the ol' Mark, Tom and Travis show, and you can insult me all you like for that... but its not exactly a really respectable source.
Now, that being said, Im just going to go ahead and include the quote in here, allthough, with all this build up I have made for it, its really not all that deserving of it... but anyway...

As Mark Hoppus once said: "depressions just a sarcastic state of mind." And that is very much how I have felt on the subject for the past 5 or 6 years, but... I dont know, maybe being told I suffer from it, and actually looking into it, I'm more aware of it as a serious issue.
That being said, however, I still think its ridiculous that there are television commercials and fundraisers for solving... wait its not even solving anything... supporting those middle class Australians who are suffering from depression.
I mean, there are Millions upon millions of starving women and childen in different parts of the world, but "beyondblue" wants me to give my money to them? fuuuuck no!
Not only that, but I could be giving my money to those trying to find a cure for cancer. Or Doctors without Boarders!
ok, rant over, and if that hasnt made me seem heartless enough, I also will never give a dime to the make-a-wish foundation.
Those kids are lucky enough to be born in a first world country.